I hate making up titles.

I feel as if I should post something on my blog since I haven't done that really. I honestly don't even know if anyone reads this anyway, but let's see.

I'm moving soon, I still don't know the date, but we're hoping sooner rather than later. I'd love to be settled before Christmas so I can spend Christmas with family that gives a shit. Lisa put it as "There's a difference between giving and giving a shit." which I thought was very well said. There are just some things about my family that I absolutely cannot stand. I'd just like to put it out there that no matter what it looks like on the outside looking in, we are probably one of the most dysfunctional families ever. I'm not looking for sympathy, everyone's family is screwed up, but the fact that our family is supposed to be based on "Christian Values" and we supposedly have so many strong traditions and all of that nonsense, just kinda makes it worse. I'm a Christian and I believe that there is only one person that has the ability to judge and condemn and his name is God. I believe that we're supposed to strive to be our best, to be 'like Jesus' and be accepting and loving towards one another just as he did. Jesus did not discriminate between people because of their job, because of the way they lived their lives, he just told them the good word and it was their choice whether or not to believe. He loved everyone and he sacrificed everything for the salvation of sinners, what would some of my family sacrifice for me? What would some of them sacrifice for certain other members? There are some in which they would more easily sacrifice more. There are some members of my family that I honestly wouldn't sacrifice much for, but then there are some that I would sacrifice anything and everything in the blink of an eye to save them. I don't know what it is that bonds certain people together, but I'm thankful for it. I'm very thankful for the people that I have in my life right now. I've done a lot of 'friend deleting' lately, removing stuff from my life that just isn't worth it anymore. I've done away with quite a few old, dying friendships and relationships that I kept around for nostalgia's sake and while I was kinda friendless for a while, I've made new ones and it's given me the ability to really let go of the old (aka NJ) and move onto the new (aka TX) and feel confident that I can do it.

On a lighter note, while talking with Paula, I realized why I haven't done much work on Catiebug's scarf, I'm using my bamboo needles and I don't like them. I mean, the weight of them rocks, they're so light, but it gives me that tingly feeling down my spine when I use them, almost as if someone was raking their nails down a chalkboard, and that feeling is the suck. I think I'm going to have to buy a set of metal needles in the same size in order to really finish this scarf by Christmas. I think she'll love it, it's purple and soft and those are pretty much the only requirements said 3 year old seems to have for anything to be worthy of use.

I'm almost finished with my basket weave scarf. I think I want to make this one kind of long. I haven't decided how I'm going to finish it, I might just leave it boxy. I don't know. I used red heart yarn for it, which when I wrap it around me to test it is kinda scratchy, I hope that when I wash it, it'll be less scratchy.

Steven wants a beanie, a charcoal beanie to be exact. He doesn't want black and he doesn't want blue, he wants charcoal, so I need to find some charcoal colored yarn. Maybe wool. I don't know. I should probably find a pattern and figure out how the heck to make a hat to start with. So far I've only knitted squares and rectangles, I think it's time for something new. I've tackled following a pattern....soooo.

I'm thinking of trying to learn how to do cable-y stuff. I have the pink yarn from the ugly scarf that I ripped out that will be good for playing. I must search the internet for guidance...off to do that, I've wasted enough of your time.

JL